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Old 12-14-2015, 03:22 PM   #1
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He Said Let Me Go.

He said let me go. I said no. I cannot. I want you. I don't need you, I want you.

Why?

I stopped. Why do I want this man? What is it about him that has him on my mind at even and odd hours of the day?

That smile, gleaming white, with a tooth missing toward the back. That smile that lights up his eyes when he talks to me.

His laughter. How everything is a joke, how his wordplay makes me smile when I don't want too. How it seems to rumble from deep inside and comes bubbling up to my ears.

His sadness at times, how he's not sure of himself, if he should stay or go, afraid I'm going to leave him, afraid I am going to stay. Afraid that I will see his true self and be disgusted with what he has done.

His work ethic. He works everyday. Even when he's not working, he's working. Around the house, outside, down the road with friends. That man, he don't know how to be still.

His motion. The way he moves, the way he's silent, the way he sits back and takes a drag of his cigarette.

His religion. How he prays in the morning to his heavenly father, how he sings in the teepee with his peyote brothers, how he talks about his God. How he makes me want to know, to make that 2nd step toward learning and having a connection to a deeper meaning.

All these things ran thru my mind and very few came to my lips. Let me go he said. And I nodded into the phone. I cried, I can't. My eyes blinked and I felt the tears fall. This is what he want's Annette. He can't deal with your crazy. He can't deal with the sorrow. The anger, the pain. My life went topsy turvy in 3 weeks.

Once again, I breathed, a long indrawn breath, I blinked again, and nodding, I said goodbye. I hung up the phone. I stared away for a moment. And I nodded and thought, it's for the best. I wasn't enough for him. Or maybe I was too much.

Let me go, he said. And I did. I didn't want to. But I did.

How do you turn it off though? The memories and thoughts of the future? Of looking at your phone and not seeing it ring? Of not getting a text. Of not hearing his voice? How do you turn it off when all you wanted was to be near him? To have his arms around you, to hear him breathing next to you?

Let me go, he said.
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He said let me go. I said no. I cannot. I want you. I don't need you, I want you.

Why?

I stopped. Why do I want this man? What is it about him that has him on my mind at even and odd hours of the day?

That smile, gleaming white, with a tooth missing toward the back. That smile that lights up his eyes when he talks to me.

His laughter. How everything is a joke, how his wordplay makes me smile when I don't want too. How it seems to rumble from deep inside and comes bubbling up to my ears.

His sadness at times, how he's not sure of himself, if he should stay or go, afraid I'm going to leave him, afraid I am going to stay. Afraid that I will see his true self and be disgusted with what he has done.

His work ethic. He works everyday. Even when he's not working, he's working. Around the house, outside, down the road with friends. That man, he don't know how to be still.

His motion. The way he moves, the way he's silent, the way he sits back and takes a drag of his cigarette.

His religion. How he prays in the morning to his heavenly father, how he sings in the teepee with his peyote brothers, how he talks about his God. How he makes me want to know, to make that 2nd step toward learning and having a connection to a deeper meaning.

All these things ran thru my mind and very few came to my lips. Let me go he said. And I nodded into the phone. I cried, I can't. My eyes blinked and I felt the tears fall. This is what he want's Annette. He can't deal with your crazy. He can't deal with the sorrow. The anger, the pain. My life went topsy turvy in 3 weeks.

Once again, I breathed, a long indrawn breath, I blinked again, and nodding, I said goodbye. I hung up the phone. I stared away for a moment. And I nodded and thought, it's for the best. I wasn't enough for him. Or maybe I was too much.

Let me go, he said. And I did. I didn't want to. But I did.

How do you turn it off though? The memories and thoughts of the future? Of looking at your phone and not seeing it ring? Of not getting a text. Of not hearing his voice? How do you turn it off when all you wanted was to be near him? To have his arms around you, to hear him breathing next to you?

Let me go, he said.
its hard to tell my mom to let go of things and move on. Its hard to tell her to let her. Daughter be. Mom shees all grown up now she has a life let her be.
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