On April 26th I received the tragic news of my son “Baby Frank” passing on to the spirit world...
I have been going through a lot since then, remembering, wishing I could turn back the hands of time, wanting him to be with me, all the thoughts in the world of “what if....”. I know that I cannot change what has happened, however, I do wonder...”why?”.
I miss my boy so much and no matter how much I pray, I wonder if I have the patience any longer, to be without him. It was about three weeks after his funeral that I was feeling down and out, contemplating suicide, thinking the worse. I was awake at 4:00am pacing the house, crying and angered about Baby Frank’s death. Finally around about 5:45am, I fell asleep. Now, I believe that I had an experience with the God during my sleep.
I had a dream...I was in the Kenel Community Hall helping with an event when a friend asked me to make a sign in sheet for the activity going on. I honored her request and began typing a form out when I noticed a little boy run by the door. At first I thought it was one of the kids in the hall and continued typing. I then noticed a boy standing by the door and realized that it was my son...”Baby Frank!”, I stopped what I was doing and held him so tight and kept feeling him and touching his head, arms, hair and continued hugging him. It was the best feeling in the world, a feeling of euphoria...ultimate happiness! I would say that this lasted for eternity, however, dreams do come to an end.
I then looked at him eye to eye and he had no expression, no smile or anything, just “Baby Frank” staring at his dad and his dad staring at him. I then built up the courage to ask him...”Are you back for good?”, he replied with a simple nodding of his head..”No”. I then said “ok, I understand”, he went to play and the dream ended. I wasn’t sad about his answer, I think it was an understanding of God, knowing that he is in good hands.
This message is for all the parents across the world, when you have a chance please give your children a hug and kiss as much as possible and if you have to correct them, do it in a non angry way. Just do the best that you can and enjoy life with them.
God Bless,
Frank White Bull
I have started a website in his honor:
www.whitebull.org
Hau
Pilamaya Yelo
I have been going through a lot since then, remembering, wishing I could turn back the hands of time, wanting him to be with me, all the thoughts in the world of “what if....”. I know that I cannot change what has happened, however, I do wonder...”why?”.
I miss my boy so much and no matter how much I pray, I wonder if I have the patience any longer, to be without him. It was about three weeks after his funeral that I was feeling down and out, contemplating suicide, thinking the worse. I was awake at 4:00am pacing the house, crying and angered about Baby Frank’s death. Finally around about 5:45am, I fell asleep. Now, I believe that I had an experience with the God during my sleep.
I had a dream...I was in the Kenel Community Hall helping with an event when a friend asked me to make a sign in sheet for the activity going on. I honored her request and began typing a form out when I noticed a little boy run by the door. At first I thought it was one of the kids in the hall and continued typing. I then noticed a boy standing by the door and realized that it was my son...”Baby Frank!”, I stopped what I was doing and held him so tight and kept feeling him and touching his head, arms, hair and continued hugging him. It was the best feeling in the world, a feeling of euphoria...ultimate happiness! I would say that this lasted for eternity, however, dreams do come to an end.
I then looked at him eye to eye and he had no expression, no smile or anything, just “Baby Frank” staring at his dad and his dad staring at him. I then built up the courage to ask him...”Are you back for good?”, he replied with a simple nodding of his head..”No”. I then said “ok, I understand”, he went to play and the dream ended. I wasn’t sad about his answer, I think it was an understanding of God, knowing that he is in good hands.
This message is for all the parents across the world, when you have a chance please give your children a hug and kiss as much as possible and if you have to correct them, do it in a non angry way. Just do the best that you can and enjoy life with them.
God Bless,
Frank White Bull
I have started a website in his honor:
www.whitebull.org
Hau
Pilamaya Yelo
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