Ok I must start this thread with a sob story...
For 15 years of my 17 year life I thought my mom was mexican..we were raised pretty close to the mexican culture and me and my sibblings ;earned spanish from the communities we were raised in.
WhenI was 17 one of the elders in my family (my gramndmothers aunt died aged 97) My familly then got together and were talking about land and CDIB Cards....
Well after researching I realised that my mother was actually Choctaw Indian from Louisiana. When I askde her why she never mentioned it before this land thing she said because she was raised to not be ndn because of the prejudices that were going around...I was in complete shock.....
I ran away adn found my father asked him about everything adn he said yes your mother is indian....now my dad being black i was like ok so you really are black right lol he said no and pulled out a photo album and i saw his mother white as snow....he said your grandmother is caddo indian your grandfather is black..so im half......
ok so i found outr now my moms choctaw and my das half caddo....so ever since that day ive been non stop researching my roots and i am finally going to attend my first powwow.
I feel cheated out teh experience of knowing who i was before this...all of the stories from the elders...traditions passed on...(im sad)......
I need to adopt an elder to show me the ways but how do i approahc an elder and say teach me...name me????
You guys help me...please.....I weill be at the Gathering of Nations this year it will be so moving to me to be around my own people i just hope im accepted. Help you guys...pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeee.....
Love April........I need all the help I can get....
For 15 years of my 17 year life I thought my mom was mexican..we were raised pretty close to the mexican culture and me and my sibblings ;earned spanish from the communities we were raised in.
WhenI was 17 one of the elders in my family (my gramndmothers aunt died aged 97) My familly then got together and were talking about land and CDIB Cards....
Well after researching I realised that my mother was actually Choctaw Indian from Louisiana. When I askde her why she never mentioned it before this land thing she said because she was raised to not be ndn because of the prejudices that were going around...I was in complete shock.....
I ran away adn found my father asked him about everything adn he said yes your mother is indian....now my dad being black i was like ok so you really are black right lol he said no and pulled out a photo album and i saw his mother white as snow....he said your grandmother is caddo indian your grandfather is black..so im half......
ok so i found outr now my moms choctaw and my das half caddo....so ever since that day ive been non stop researching my roots and i am finally going to attend my first powwow.
I feel cheated out teh experience of knowing who i was before this...all of the stories from the elders...traditions passed on...(im sad)......
I need to adopt an elder to show me the ways but how do i approahc an elder and say teach me...name me????
You guys help me...please.....I weill be at the Gathering of Nations this year it will be so moving to me to be around my own people i just hope im accepted. Help you guys...pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeee.....
Love April........I need all the help I can get....
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