my horrible nightmare

[creekfairy]

let me give you some background info...
I was diagnosed with PCOS in 2001.. I got married and as of this month my husband and I have been trying to concieve for 27 months...we've used herbal remedies, progesterone cream...standing on our head...you name it. I had my first apointment on April 10th to start invasive fertility treatments..
I have my 2nd apointment tomorrow (22nd)

Okay heres the dream I had last night:
Well, okay you guys know how I went to the doctor on the 10th right? Well, my dream started with going to the doctor (tomorrow)... and the ultrasound technician handing me a paper from the doctor showing where they had removed tissues from my hoo-ha and that I was pregnant but it was a tubal, it said something about being 10 weeks along..and here's the really strange part... said something about being a male... that the baby was a male... yeah I know strange... and in my dream I just kept screaming... no no no...Elias no no no... over and over again... I was calling everybody... my other mom, my husband, my bestfriend...and just screaming and crying into the phone... I'm pregnant but its a tubal...my precious Elias is dying....over and over again. Than... in my dream mind you... I came home and was talking about it to my husband and he said.. well atleast we know you can get pregnant now... and I started talking to him about well, it must have been the Soy Isoflavones that I used this past cycle because thats the first time I had used that much Soy.. (200 MG)
So anyways... I eventually woke up... I still havent told my hubby or anybody else about this nightmare yet... I'm still too shaken up
What do you girls think?

And also...
I'm currently WAY late on my cycle... and I had spotting for 2 % 1/2 days but it stopped Friday... light spotting is a sign of implantation... so maybe? I just dont want get my hopes up.. I had a miscarriage when I was 19 and havent been pregnant since...

I know some of you have some insight into dreams... what do ya'll think?
I'm also one of the types who have what I call "dejavu" type dreams..where I dream about something and than it comes true...that happens ALL the time

[CandaePrincess]

Dang girl. I am praying for you. It's hard to tell about symptoms etc, esp. with PCOS. I hope you all are able to get pregnant and have a wonderful pregnancy. But don't let the dreams or anything else deter you or make you worry. Your dreams are probably stemming from the fast you are already worried about getting pregnant. I wish I could offer comfort but just know you are not alone and be sure to open up to your husband and family b/c they can also offer comfort and support. Good luck.

[ac_miss]

Dang girl. I am praying for you. It's hard to tell about symptoms etc, esp. with PCOS. I hope you all are able to get pregnant and have a wonderful pregnancy. But don't let the dreams or anything else deter you or make you worry. Your dreams are probably stemming from the fast you are already worried about getting pregnant. I wish I could offer comfort but just know you are not alone and be sure to open up to your husband and family b/c they can also offer comfort and support. Good luck.

LIke Candae said, don't let the dreams deter you. You should also open up to your husband and family for support. As a PCOS sufferer myself, I think you just need to let nature takes its course. You and your husband should enjoy yourselves, and concentrate on you. Be selfish for a while longer. *LOL* Then when the time is right, you'll have your bundle of joy.

Trust me, I've been where you're at. Having a baby is great, but you also have to be mind-set on raising a child for the next 18+ years. Raising a baby is hard work.

Again, open to your husband, and share your fears. The time will come for you guys. Just wait and see. Your prayers will be answered when the time is right.

[ac_miss]

P.S. It's also time to get healthy. Eat a balanced diet and exercise regularly. That helped me out alot, and then *poof*, here comes baby!

[creekfairy]

thank you for the advice ladies...
we are ready to be parents
and I'm not getting any younger and neither is he
I'll be 28 in January and he'll be 30 in November.. clocks a tickin' right on by
I'll post an update after tomorrow's apointment
...tomorrow I'm getting bloodwork and and 2 different ultrasounds

[ac_miss]

Good luck! Sending some prayers your way!!

[Annie Fawn]

Best of luck honey. The nightmare could have been caused by either stress or even what you ate for dinner last night, or both. Keep your hopes up and we will keep you in our prayers.

[Smokin' Ace]

thank you for the advice ladies...
we are ready to be parents
and I'm not getting any younger and neither is he
I'll be 28 in January and he'll be 30 in November.. clocks a tickin' right on by
I'll post an update after tomorrow's apointment
...tomorrow I'm getting bloodwork and and 2 different ultrasounds

Baby girl - you will be fine... I had my first born at 27 and my second at thirty seven. (2 different husbands, one miscarriage inbetween) Relax, enjoy the practice you have together to make that baby, aye....will keep u in my prayers....

If anything at all is wrong, please know it will be ok -
stressing will only compound any issues...

[subeeds]

thank you for the advice ladies...
we are ready to be parents
and I'm not getting any younger and neither is he
I'll be 28 in January and he'll be 30 in November.. clocks a tickin' right on by
I'll post an update after tomorrow's apointment
...tomorrow I'm getting bloodwork and and 2 different ultrasounds

Don't let the age thing play games with your head. My mom turned 41 when I was 3 days old. So never give up hope. Also, your dejavu dreams are precognitive dreams. I have them sometimes, but they only seem to happen if I have the same dream more than once.

[Blackbear]

First of all... 99.9% of dreams are visual depictations of our anxieties, desires and fears... so your nightmare was simply that.. YOUR nightmare. What you fear the most cultivating itself in you dreams because you are still trying to deal with it when sleeping. You think that dream is bad... wait till you are 7 months pregnant and then the fear of being a good mom dreams start happening and those are twice as horrid! I dreamed someone stuck my firstborn in a microwave on the popcorn setting and I litterally watched her go pop! Torn apart by a pack of dogs, kidnapped by aliens...and this current pregnancy I've already dreamed someone was bathing him and his head went down the drain and got stuck it's just awful! So do not go reading the future into your dreams until you have one that does actually come true.

My cousin's wife has had similar problems and as soon as she gave up the dream of being a mom.. she had a pregnancy that did'nt miscarry and now she's due in 4 weeks! And don't talk about getting too old... I'm 39 and having my second child. My Auntie had her youngest at the age of 43 or 45. I don't recommend having kids after 35 just becuase of the risks involved, but it's not impossible and not a guarantee that there will be something wrong with the baby. And even if there was you'd love it all the same anyhow.

Giving up trying to get pregnant worked for me as well... just told the creator one day that I was leaving it up to him.. if I was gonna have another child that it had to happen before January or I was getting my tubes tied and that I wanted a healthy baby boy.... well he heard me and that's what I got.. pregnant on labor day weekend and it's a healthy baby boy I'll be having here soon!

[creekfairy]

I got the ultrasounds done... it all really went well


And, I got my blood tests done... they are doing a bunch of tests...


testerone
progesterone
FSH
LH
glucose
and a bunch more I cant remember them all


and I got the results back from my pap that I had on the 10th
I had an abnormal pap which I figured anyways... since I already knew I had HPV
so it says Atypical Squamous cells of undertimend significance
so basically the cells are kinda iffy so we need to keep an eye on things..basically meaning that its not cancerous but it could turn out that way so they want me to get paps every 6 months instead of once a year
I have my next apointment May 1st when I get the results of my bloodwork and ultrasounds...
the tech did ask me if I had alot of pain my left ovary which I thought was odd because the majority of my pain is in the right ovary so who knows

thank you to everyone for the encouraging words
its nice to know that people I dont even know care ya know?

[badmaninc]

let me give you some background info...
I was diagnosed with PCOS in 2001.. I got married and as of this month my husband and I have been trying to concieve for 27 months...we've used herbal remedies, progesterone cream...standing on our head...you name it. I had my first apointment on April 10th to start invasive fertility treatments..
I have my 2nd apointment tomorrow (22nd)

Okay heres the dream I had last night:
Well, okay you guys know how I went to the doctor on the 10th right? Well, my dream started with going to the doctor (tomorrow)... and the ultrasound technician handing me a paper from the doctor showing where they had removed tissues from my hoo-ha and that I was pregnant but it was a tubal, it said something about being 10 weeks along..and here's the really strange part... said something about being a male... that the baby was a male... yeah I know strange... and in my dream I just kept screaming... no no no...Elias no no no... over and over again... I was calling everybody... my other mom, my husband, my bestfriend...and just screaming and crying into the phone... I'm pregnant but its a tubal...my precious Elias is dying....over and over again. Than... in my dream mind you... I came home and was talking about it to my husband and he said.. well atleast we know you can get pregnant now... and I started talking to him about well, it must have been the Soy Isoflavones that I used this past cycle because thats the first time I had used that much Soy.. (200 MG)
So anyways... I eventually woke up... I still havent told my hubby or anybody else about this nightmare yet... I'm still too shaken up
What do you girls think?

And also...
I'm currently WAY late on my cycle... and I had spotting for 2 % 1/2 days but it stopped Friday... light spotting is a sign of implantation... so maybe? I just dont want get my hopes up.. I had a miscarriage when I was 19 and havent been pregnant since...

I know some of you have some insight into dreams... what do ya'll think?
I'm also one of the types who have what I call "dejavu" type dreams..where I dream about something and than it comes true...that happens ALL the time

Dude, way TMI. Just let us know when and if you are pregnant. Don't need to hear details. I looked at your profile and you are only 27, don't worry so much.

[Blackbear]

I got the ultrasounds done... it all really went well


And, I got my blood tests done... they are doing a bunch of tests...


testerone
progesterone
FSH
LH
glucose
and a bunch more I cant remember them all

Ok so you got a bunch of tests done... are you pregnant or not? ROFLMAO!!!!

[creekfairy]

Dude, way TMI. Just let us know when and if you are pregnant. Don't need to hear details. I looked at your profile and you are only 27, don't worry so much.

Ever heard the saying... if you cant say something nice than dont say anything at all?
I dont think I said anything "TMI"... unless you are like a 12 yr old little boy who gets embarrassed when someone mentions the word boobie...
"Oh my"...
anyways

[creekfairy]

Ok so you got a bunch of tests done... are you pregnant or not? ROFLMAO!!!!

I'm so glad that you get your kicks and laugh at someone who's desperately trying to concieve
These tests were to check my hormone levels to see what medications I need to be on in order to concieve...thank you very little.

I cant believe how insensitive and just flat out hurtful some people can be when I have been nothing but nice to everyone here @ powwows