How did you do it? I don't know how you mummas did it by yourselfs! Being a mum is hard right now. My lil boy was born Nov 24 as some of you know and have been following along with my pregnancy and afterwards....
Last Wednesday, I saw my lil boy was sick and took him into the ER cuz he had a temp and wasn't eatin right and had puked up on me. I ended up going back to the ER later that night cuz his temp got higer and he still wasn't eatin. My baby got transfered to another hospital to the NICU (neo-natal intensive care unit). After blood cultures and analysis.. he was diagnosed with RSV and Jaundice. We spent 4 days in the hospital.
These were the worst days of my entire life. Watching my lil boy through a glass in an encubator, hold'n him while he screamed in my ears while they picked at him, not being able to touch him with my bare hands, wearing gowns, masks, gloves...
And where the hell was dad? He came after i called him. He stayed for a few hours and went home. He came up the next day with his mum and sister... and that was it! 3 hours out of 4 days! I kept gettin kicked out of the room cuz i would fall asleep in there next to him. They wanted a parent in there at all times and i couldn't stay awake the whole time. I've been in dangerous territory for losing my milk for lack of nutrients and stress..
How did you mums do it? All I can say is thank you mummas for the hard work you do for us! You do everything you can for you lil ones and don't expect nuthin in return. And why do we continue to take care the baby's father? Why do we keep them informed and up to date? If feels like its my responsibility to keep him up to date with his son's condition. I know he loves his son, but work was more important? Going home for big drum was more important than his son being in the Intensice care unit!??? I just dont' get it.. maybe i'm blabbering on and on.. but i gotta get it out before I box his ears!
Baby and I are home now. I quit my work and school to be at home. I know we will be okay, but damn being a mumma is hard work!
Last Wednesday, I saw my lil boy was sick and took him into the ER cuz he had a temp and wasn't eatin right and had puked up on me. I ended up going back to the ER later that night cuz his temp got higer and he still wasn't eatin. My baby got transfered to another hospital to the NICU (neo-natal intensive care unit). After blood cultures and analysis.. he was diagnosed with RSV and Jaundice. We spent 4 days in the hospital.
These were the worst days of my entire life. Watching my lil boy through a glass in an encubator, hold'n him while he screamed in my ears while they picked at him, not being able to touch him with my bare hands, wearing gowns, masks, gloves...
And where the hell was dad? He came after i called him. He stayed for a few hours and went home. He came up the next day with his mum and sister... and that was it! 3 hours out of 4 days! I kept gettin kicked out of the room cuz i would fall asleep in there next to him. They wanted a parent in there at all times and i couldn't stay awake the whole time. I've been in dangerous territory for losing my milk for lack of nutrients and stress..
How did you mums do it? All I can say is thank you mummas for the hard work you do for us! You do everything you can for you lil ones and don't expect nuthin in return. And why do we continue to take care the baby's father? Why do we keep them informed and up to date? If feels like its my responsibility to keep him up to date with his son's condition. I know he loves his son, but work was more important? Going home for big drum was more important than his son being in the Intensice care unit!??? I just dont' get it.. maybe i'm blabbering on and on.. but i gotta get it out before I box his ears!
Baby and I are home now. I quit my work and school to be at home. I know we will be okay, but damn being a mumma is hard work!
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